May 28, 2010
Finally finish watching my 3rd time of "Bai Quan Nu Wang" hahs, never got sick of taiwan dramas. Now finding another show to watch. Its after exams, seems so free, nothing to do. Everyday watch tv, play com.
Yesterday was really funny, morning met DW to do Mr Chan's farewell card, and DW was late for almost an hour! OMG! hah, but nvm at least we got the thing done ( in a rush ). Then we had PW, finally thrash out everything hahahs. SRGCE meeting 1, in the same group as KARL, wow hah, then we just starting talking about maple! Then met as a guitar, exciting trip ahead i can anticipate! Went to the museum, along the way DW, Karl, Eugene and I were crazy about maple, really funny and had fun! The talk by those people was extremely long, english + mandarin, my feet hurt like super badly, arthritis + blisters. Sadd. Met Hwee Ting and the whole guitar was bonded, except for a few girls, really great experience, and DW damn biased, only take photo and act cute in front of a cute, handsome boy. psk.
Walked all the way to Cathy, ate at Billy Bombers ( i was broke ), luckily, got DW, we shared. Then went to Mount E to visit Ah gong, THANK GOD his operation if fine. Regretted throwing tantrums, never see him so weak before.
Next week's gonna be nightmares, getting back my papers, hope i can at least pass overall.
Maple here i come, new job! ahhhh so excited, hahs, got Karl to sponser me. hehs.
BYE!
"where there is love, there is life" LIANE @ 6:59 PM
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May 25, 2010
Yesterday was supposed to be a great day with a morning of PW and free after that. After PW, most of the guys wanted to go pool at hougang plaza, was in a dilemma if i should go. Then it started to rain, Inging had an umbrella so i followed her. CH, KC and BH so poor thing, stand at security guard there waiting for it to dry, i felt so back, borrowed Inging's umbrella and walked back to shelter them, just to find out that CH had an umbrella -.-! But nevermind, we went for lunch then POOL AGAIN. LOL. Nothing much but really had fun. Went to ahmah's house and swam, for the first time, the whole swimming pool was empty. Its was like late afternoon already, no Sun, no tan, no fun. ):
It all started when i reached home, see someone's FB status and realised someone has just PS all over again, i didn't want to kick up a fuss so just shut up after 2 comments, but here she comes and type a whole chunck of words, trying to "explain" herself. I was like forget it, she don't even understand how i felt, so I don't care and just said i was in a bad mood to avoid of the whole situation. If i don't do that, i will just lose another "friend" or rather the whole group of them, so what can i do? nothing.
I got so lost of what to do and started talking to CH, and realised that i really have been a bastard to vent it all on CH, i feel so bad after going out with Van and talking to her about it as well. Now, all i have in SRJC seriously is only CH and maybe KC, really lost. But nevertheless, i still have God, Im grateful.
It was disastrous, i cried like shyt. Lets just hope i won't explode one day in this 2 years.
Well, today is well and good. Van pon school and went to enjoy with me! So nice right, HAHAHS. Watched "Last Song", quite a nice show, quite emotional, but i felt numb. I don't know why. But anyways, had so much fun shopping and talking about our sch life,and witness some weird pple. We went back and forth from orchard to somerset to orchard to somerset. HAHA and my feet got so hurted with my pair of neckerman slippers, i guess i haven't worn it for a long time and it got a bit "rough", so i went to buy a kappa sneaker, PURPLE in colour. hahah, omg and a very embarrassing thing happened, we went out of OG and went, where's the MRT? the security guard behind us said, you know how to come here, don't know how to go back? then he points and laughed. SO EMBARRASSING!!!
Today is great, really. I miss my sec sch friends, really much. Its like no friends can ever replace them.
Van talked to me about 3. I actually didn't had him in my thoughts for long, I felt guilty. But what can i do? Stitch occupies my thoughts the most, I can't control that. I'm sorry 3. I really am.
So sad, i have blisters in the front, back and sides of my feet. Sob.
And, tomorrow have school, I hope its not too awkward. (:
"Love is hard work, and hard work sometimes hurt. " Anyeong.
"where there is love, there is life" LIANE @ 8:16 PM
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May 21, 2010
Finally Mid years are over! But its just another nightmare when we get back our results. All i can say, i will fail everything except for Chemistry, Chinese and maybe, just maybe Econs. Thursday was the worst day ever, the two worst papers, don't want to talk about it. Chemistry, sigh, i guess my A is jut gone, i have already lost a minimum of 17 marks. Just hope they won't be too strict in marking.
Cheng Hui suggested that we go pool after the paper today. At first the three girls tagged along, but i know they are reluctant to go. K has never considered my feelings before, but what can i do? Nothing. Well, I had fun with CH and KC and i don't feel left out at all, not like how i felt with the girls. Hahha, during pool, it was so funny, the two guys keep saying, "okay, now serious already" and like so many times lahs! LAME lors. But the both of them are really nice people, but stupid CH keep hitting me with the cue!~ zzz.
Then we went for dinner, what the heck, the two guys couldn't make up their mind on what to eat, damn funny. Then, when we were ordering KC is seriously lmao, he ask the waitress a lot of questions redundant questions also. Seriously damn embarrassing beside him. We walked passed one audio shop and both of them got so caught up with IP Man, stand there and watch and TRIED to imitate HAHAHA! OH!, and we saw Russell Lee, Singapore Ghost stories author, damn cool!
Today was really great, doubt i would have so much fun if i was with the girls. Meeting Sheryl and Sheena tomorrow, really lacked of sleep these few days, and my shoulders are really tired.
"To love a person is to learn the song that is in their heart, and to sing it to then when they have forgotten "
God will make a way, when there seems to be no way. ((:
Goodnight people!
"where there is love, there is life" LIANE @ 10:40 PM
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May 19, 2010
I am already in the midst of mid years GP, Chinese and Econs is over and i know i didn't do quite well. I did have a goal but i guess its not quite possible yet. GP was like totally urgh.. I forgot the meaning of alleviation and i assumed it as cause ( i know this is embarrassing) so i carry on and writing my plan, and Mr Lim just stood there and stare at my plan, in my hear i was like "uhoh, i think its wrong" So then to play safe i went on to do question 4, elderly as a burden. Paper 2 was relatively ok (i find), but i have no idea how i will fare for it. Its like in JC, it seems manageable, but when you get your results, its just OMG.
Chinese was totally screwed, i have never did chinese in such a panicky feeling before, i have no idea why as well, there were so many other thoughts in my head, I guess cause it was a afternoon paper, and blur me i went to school at 7.30 am, thinking the paper starts at 8 am. I can't concentrate in the afternoon, I pray hard this won't happen to my Chemistry paper. Everything will be over. Econs, i don't know, couldn't quite finish my paper.
Tomorrow is Physics and Maths, my both achilles heels. WORST subjects. But i am trying for maths this time and just let go of physics FOR NOW. And Friday, the most important paper, Chemistry.
I came back so late today, my plan was to come back have a nap till about 12 and study, but because I didn't want to feel left out, i not sure why, i realised after i enter into JC i feel very insecure. So then i followed my friends to heartland mall and spent like 1 hour sitting there chatting! OMG. I regretted going. Then we left, I was the only one who is taking bus from opposite so I asked her to follow me as she can take opposite as well, and all she says was "lets wait for the rest lahs", so i just decided to leave myself, alone. Its so unfair, she always wait for the others cause she thinks that they are very poor thing, then what about me? Nevermind, forget it. Its just two years.
I don;t know why but i just can't clique well with the girls in my class, just not my kind i guess. But its just two years, I will tolerate. Luckily there is still CH. I thank God for that. Entering into JC let me experienced many new things, superficial people, egoistic people, weird people and the feeling of being left out. Maybe its just a test that God have put for me. I will grow out of it, I will. Maybe i was just too pampered and had friends that were really great previously, now i have to learn.
I miss you, really. When then we can have that meal?
" Absence diminishes small loves and increase great ones, as the wind blows out the fire and blows up the bonfire"
Bye. ):
"where there is love, there is life" LIANE @ 1:08 PM
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May 14, 2010
Just read Jono's blog and he just posted about starting to mug and do as uch as he can to do well in his all his tests.
Two days are given to us as study break, and i just wasted both of it. It felt more like a holiday! Totally guilty, its mid-years in 2 days' time and yet I am still not doing anything about it. Jono's mid-years is like in... 1.5 months? Omg, and he's is already feeling the urge. Even Kokila is studying already, and me and Cheng Hui have a competition on who is going to do better, how, how?
Forget about it for now. Its sunday night for sure. (:
I realised i have been becoming more emotional, watching tv shows can make me cry,seriously i wonder why. Insecure? Am i really that? Many say that family support is one of the most important thing in life. I can say i dont really have it. My relationship with my parents is bad, i find it tougher each day to communicate with them, sometimes i dont evn feel like replying them cause i want to avoid any arguements. This is bad, I know its bad, everytime i have troubles, they were never first in my list for me to talk to. Sigh.
Eden once said, he used to have this problem as well, but as he grew older he begin to understand his parents 的苦心。 Well, i hope it is true, in Church everytime Pastor talks about family and its the current topic, i always feel like crying, but always putting on a strong front. I will pray about it, God please help me!
I know i am a girl that is always putting on a strong front, always happy and on-going of stuffs. I don't want people to worry, and i don't want to feel embarrassed. I rmbr that day in school, OMG, so embarrassing in front of CH, its like the first time a guy see me cry, literally. But i really felt much better. Really. I really thank CH for everything he did, without this friend i guess i would have already 崩溃。That day i sent a text to CH to thank him, and he saw through me. Amazing.
I'm really tired.
" All thoughts, all delights; whatever stirs this mortal frame, all are but ministers of love, and feed his sacred flame"
Bye!
"where there is love, there is life" LIANE @ 9:04 PM
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It has been long since I have posted. This blog has actually nothing to do with love, it's just that I like the skin. Haha. I have decided to continue blogging cause I realise that it's hard to talk to my school mates nowadays. Jc life is really hectic, i have really no idea why i got into a JC. And i didnt anticipated all these coming. I even have problem with friendship for the first time in my life. Its really tough. We are all so busy, so many things to do and mid years is in three days time.
I have just wasted one day not doing anything but to do up this blog of mine. For the first time I actually have the urge of studying earlier than to do what I did before for my past 10 years of schooling; studying the night before. Maybe it's because I have been not doing well. I have not been passing physics! And Maths, though improving but I have no confidence in passing this time round. Well, although I have redeemed myself for lecture test 2 for chemistry, but I know I am going down. ): GP is one of the worst, no idea how am I going to pass! Well, Chinese I can say it's still around there, at least I know I won't fail for sure. Economics, I have really no idea, no idea at all.
PW, have been putting alot of effort in doing my PI, helping out friends of other schools I realise I learn as well. Just got our groups on Monday. It's a not bad group I can say. Although some say it can be better, I am happy with it. Cheng hui, Yong jian, Timothy, Buan Heng. Really hope we will be able to work well!
Ps, cheng hui, stop making fun of me le!!
I had eye infection on Monday. Dont know how I got it. Well, I text you and I am well contented that you replied and shown concern. Really happy. Guitar have been great, got into exco as logistics personnel and working with the log team is a great experience, but DW is always making fun of me and HW. Zz luhs.
Set a few motivation for life and for my studies. Firstly,for God, I have rededicated myself to God once again on 6 may 2010. Secondly, for myself and my family. Thirdly, one of my best friend, Jonathan teo, he's so smart and wise! And also stitch. Go for it !
"where there is love, there is life" LIANE @ 12:19 AM
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ME
ANELIEW.RUTH
Just another girl on this earth,
angels in heaven sang for joy on:
12 March 1993.
For a new born baby named LIANE.
I am quite a cam-whore and materialistic girl.
I also admit Im quite pampered.
Have a habit of giving my friends random names.
& I tend to think and probe over alot of things.
A follower of many taiwan dramas and espically love "下一站，幸福 。 恶作剧之吻。败犬女王"
Loves most chinese music, singing and playing music.
SRJCian
Saint Hildan (2002-2009)
CHIJ KC (2000-2001)
I trust in God.
"the heart has reasons that reason dont understands"
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LOVES!
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♥ purple.white
♥ stitch!
♥ mango
♥ avocado milkshake
♥ sour stuffs
♥ raw salmon
♥ japfood!
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